My Sanctuary

1 year ago

SHUT DOWN - bubbye

This blog will be permanently closed in a few days. The blog registered under http://le3n412.tumblr.com will be permanently closed too.

I’m moving forward to another blog address.

http://sleepyhead412.blogspot.com

Remember, this blog will be no more.

2 years ago

~This is a freaking great song by Usher. LUV IT!!!!~

2 years ago

L.I.F.E

Hey guys…truly apologize for the long hiatus
I’m not gonna make any excuses but WORK has been sucking the life rite out of me
1stly, I would want to applaud myself for being able to survive my 1st PEAK PERIOD

mind you, PEAK PERIOD is NOT one smooth roller coaster ride
between the months of January till March, we’ve been going home approx 2-3am everyday….to top it off, we work on every weekends too
it’s one HELL of an experience
what do I get in return? well…I managed to collect about 20+ days of OT which are converted into LEAVE
to be honest, I’m not sure if that’s worth it…but I’m not complaining
ok…enuff bout work…let’s move on to other stuff
last Saturday (08/05/2010), I attended one of my batchmates’ wedding in Raub, Pahang
aaaa…Raub brings back the high school memories, for instance, the places we usually hang out and eat during our outings
can’t believe that the GOOD POINT bakery is still there
I wonder if their breads taste as good as before
anyways…that’s not the point
the point is…I’m so so happy seeing my friends building a family, building a life
i’m lying if I said that I’m not the slightest bit jealous
come on…who am I kidding, they are already married and I still dun even have a boyfriend
I even have a close friend who is already pregnant with a baby
sometimes I do feel left behind
when I voice out my concern on this, people will always say, “Ur still YOUNG, don’t think about marriage, built ur career first bla bla bla”
what makes u think that I dun know all that
Yes I know i’m still “young” but people aren’t getting any younger
I’ll turn 24 in December and I think it’s perfectly acceptable to start thinking of ur future, no?
anyways…let’s put this topic to rest
I do have a question though….
is it possible for someone to have feelings for somebody else for 9 YEARS?
yep yep…the person in that situation is me
I think I kind of like this person for 9 years now..on and off though

hahaha…to be honest, I’m not sure if it’s LIKE, LOVE or LUST =P
but everytime I see him in front of me, I just feel weird
blerghh…maybe it’s nothing, maybe I’m just over reacting
or maybe…I should just put a stop to it
I dunno…who cares
ok then, putting my pen to rest
need to continue with my studying
toodles~~

-LMN-

2 years ago

"People do desperate things to seek attention. Me? I just keep quiet when I’m feeling down or upset in hope that someone would notice. Not asking for sympathy, just show some concern would be sufficient enuff."

2 years ago

Better to be known or unknown?

*sigh*…I can’t seem to recall the good memories that I had during high school
I can’t remember the first day i stepped into the school, hell I can’t even remember the day I walked out of that school
when I have flashbacks…it will always end up with the bad ones…the bad things that happened and there are lots of them
I have no memories whatosever during my college days (college kinda sucks)
during my degree….oh boy, that was fun
endless gossips, people bitchin here and there about everyone but we were a small group so we were aways there when we need each other
sometimes, life can be easy if you don’t know that many people and not many people know you
you won’t be hated or pointed at or talked behind your back because people don’t know who you are
you mind your own business, they mind theirs
honestly, I have no idea of the purpose of this entry
just to make it clear, I’m not feeling sorry for myself or ask you guys to feel sorry for me
I’m just trying to recall my past and all I get are mostly the bad memories stuck into my brain
to sum it up…..I dun want to die alone when my time has come (ok..ni takde kaitan actually, but I’ve been watching reruns of Grey’s Anatomy and it’s just scary to die alone with nobody beside u)

-LMN-

2 years ago

that pic up there resembles what i’m feeling rite now
feel free to use ur imaginaton to interpret that picture
it may or may not come to a conclusion of what i’m feeling but isn’t that interesting…how mind works
one picture can be defined into thousands of different things….*smile*
-LMN-

that pic up there resembles what i’m feeling rite now
feel free to use ur imaginaton to interpret that picture
it may or may not come to a conclusion of what i’m feeling but isn’t that interesting…how mind works
one picture can be defined into thousands of different things….*smile*

-LMN-

2 years ago

Two-Zero-One-Zero

first and foremost….Welcome 2010!!!!
it’s kinda sad though that 2009 has passed…
the year 2009 was a rollercoaster ride for me
some events put me on top but the last 3 months of the year has got me struggling like hell (what a way to end the year)
neways….i ain’t gonna make any resolutions this year like I used to previous years
whatever happens, happens…so i’m just gonna go with the flow
the only thing that I’m aiming for…is to prove to the people I work with that I’m not a dumb ass loser who doesn’t know squat about anything
so….2010 means 2 things for me:

1) World Cup 2010 y’all (11/06/10 - 11/07/10)……ooooohhhh I soooo can’t wait.

2) Weddings weddings weddings

2 of my cousins + 1 of my anak saudara will be getting married (These ones…hands down are weddings yang memang wajib have to attend).

So…sape2 my friends that are going to get married on the same date as my cousins…I apologize awal2 but I won’t be attending yours as family comes first.

I also have friends whom are on my wajib-to-attend list.

So…it’s the year of ATTENDING weddings for me.

Me? Haha….loooong way to go. Calon pon takde lagi…let alone my wedding la kan.

Nways…not in a rush. Kalau ade jodoh, insyaAllah. Do pray for me aite. *wink*

Just to say upfront, the next 2-3 months is peak period so I may or may not have time to update this blog. But then again, who knows…I might need some place to bitch about work and my blog yang akan jadi mangsa. So…that wraps up my post. Happy New Year guys. May this year become much better and brighter than last year’s.

-LMN-

2 years ago

Wise Decision??

Hey guys….
yep yep…i know
i’ve been away from my blog for toooooo long
nways…lil update from me
just to share…I kinda hate my job
Audit is a BIG NO NO for me
i’m not complaining on the long hours or work during the weekends but when you combine that with doing something that you hate….then it becomes a BIG complain for me
i tendered my resignation 2 weeks ago…
but…due to cetain circumstances…i decided to retract my resignation and stay with the firm for few more months
but one thing’s for sure…i think i’ll be out of there in a few months time
i’m currently planning on what to do with my future when i leave the firm
i do have sumthing in mind but need to get confirmation first before i disclose it
nothing to be secretive about actually but i will reveal my future plan eventually…
nways….will be having my ACCA exam this Tuesday so wish me luck alrite
i need loads and loads of luck rite now

XOXO

2 years ago

Occupation 1 : AUDITOR

Working hours : 8.30 AM - 2 or 3 AM (Worst case scenario)

Job scope : Working under pressure to meet deadlines, dpt one or two team mates yg mcm b**i, work reviewed by so many people, get to meet clients, deal with clients (kalau dpt yg bnyk songeh..leceh la kan), every month a bit broke coz kene keluarkan own money first to pay for parking etc,

Salary : RM2400-ish (fresh grad)

Work-life balance : Macam takde jerrrrrr

Occupation 2 : Director’s Driver

Working hours : Roughly same as above

Job scope: Drive to wherever your director’s need to go, be a driver for their spouses or kids, pressure once in a while if kene marah by ur boss, kalau boss blk lmbt…boleh lepak kedai mamak tgk bola dulu

Salary : RM5000-ish (double what i’m getting now)

Work-life balance : Sgttttt balance

YG MANE SATU PILIHAN HATI??? Lol……

-LMN-

2 years ago

My day….in a nutshell.

Over the weekend, I received a DAMN BLOODY LONG coaching note from SK which I have to clear by tomorrow. Good news is..after discussions with my seniors, I don’t have to do it after all coz it was at a much higher level. Yeay!!! It’s not that I’m excited coz I dun have to do it. But it’s because that the mistakes that I made on my work was what my other seniors told me to do. Being a new joiner and all, my seniors kinda felt it was unfair for me to take up the blame so they explained to SK on my behalf. Not only that…eventhough my seniors know that that particular assignment requires high level of expertise, they did spend some time to briefly take me through the whole process on what the assignment is suppose to be about.
After more than half a month auditing CIMB, today was the 1st time I went to the Corporate floor and I was amazed with the interior. I know this sounds jakun but it was like the walls were covered in marbles or sumthing and the exeutive toilet was damn bloody huge. The waiting area was as big as half a football field (which is big to me) and the whole floor smelled sooooo wangi. Other than the Ground floor, the Corporate floor was the only one that connects the two CIMB buildings. I had to go and meet clients at one of the high rise levels and so, I decided to go to the Corporate floor instead of going down to Ground floor…just a change of pace. And u know what…I’m glad I did.
Some of my colleagues were kinda stressed out today coz certain things need to be cleared by tomorrow. In order to ease the tension surrounding the room, we told jokes, told ghost stories and played a prank on one of our colleagues. The prank was damn funny and we were laughing non stop. I malas nak cerita bout the prank coz if I tell here, it wouldn’t be as funny as being there and experiencing it urself. LOL…who said being an auditor is boring???
Ooooo…..Ms J called me just now around 9pm. I didn’t pick up the call. Haha…i’m so jahat. No la…I was in the bathroom. Normally if she calls me..it is definitely work-related. If she couldn’t get to me…she’ll leave a text. But it was kinda weird just now as she didn’t leave any text message or whatsoever. Suddenly this weird question pops out of my head….is she calling me coz she’s bored and wants to talk to me???? Weird weird weird. Aaaaahhhh….dun care la. I dun think its anything other then work. Pandai2 la die carik me if she needs me. *but I dun like working with her…ughhh*

-LMN-

2 years ago

The story of Ms J (bluekkk...i hate her)

 [ONE MORNING]
 *Kring kring*
Me: Hello....
J: Eh....where r u? I told u to be in the office like half an hour ago.
Me: I am. I'm currently on the 15th floor.
J: Whattt?? What the hell are u doing there??Our office is NEVER on the 15th floor. 15th floor is only for those with AT (available time a.k.a no clients). Those with free time. We have jobs so be in our office. Wait for me in the lobby. We're going to client's place. NOW!!!!! *puts down phone*
 *Gile ke ape pompuan ni? Sukati aku la nak ddk 15 or 14th floor ke? There's no rule stating that I can't be on 15th floor. Actually, auditors are put into different types of industries. There's FS, EUMI, MMG, CIPS and PLAS. And each industry tu, are put into different floors. My industry, which is FS (Financial Services) are on the 14th floor. But....15th floor is the biggest floor among all and everybody is welcome to sit there. Plus....most of my friends mmg lepak at 15, so that's where I'll be la kan. It is not a MUST that u must be in ur designated floors. But my senior yg sorang ni...die anggap 15 floor tu is like for losers. Blah la.....gile kuase and perasan bagus la die tu....mentang2 ko senior. Aku sekeh kang baru tau. Learn to respect people pls. Kalau dgn Manager....ko terhegeh2, tergedik2. Kalau dgn people yg same or lower rank than u....u treat us like s**t. Blahla....bodoh*
PS: This is what u get in a working environment. Tsk.. 
 -LMN-

2 years ago

-LMN-

2 years ago

The Beginning

1st of all…welcome to my new blog
Shifting to a new one due to couple of reasons:
1) I’m no longer a student. Have moved to a new life…so this blog marks the beginning of the new me.
2) I just feel like changing. Got bored with blogspot and wanna try tumblr for a change.
So yeah…basically that’s about it.
I may not have the time anymore to keep updating my blog everyday.
I’m still in the process though to balance between work and life which is a tough one.
I need to get used to work life at the moment. Then will only I may find the work-life balance.
I have soooo much to pour out into my blog. It’s just that I dun have the time.
I promise though that I will update it when I’m slightly free.
Stay tuned kay.

-LMN-

SHUT DOWN - bubbye

L.I.F.E

Better to be known or unknown?

Two-Zero-One-Zero

Wise Decision??

My day….in a nutshell.

The story of Ms J (bluekkk...i hate her)

The Beginning

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